Losing someone you love

Losing the person you love. Distance, feelings felt but not communicated, misunderstandings, wrong timing, incapacity to fulfill your expectations, lack of trust, death. Many reasons can push a relationship to end, unwillingly and unexpectedly. Although the love is strong, there are battles one cannot win. Strength and drive can get you so far, but how does one overcome the bumps that you do not control ? Life sometimes pushes us into tight corners with no escape. And you sit and wait, while the world around you shifts and carries on. How does one free oneself from that claustrophobic alcove ? Time will carry on while you stay hidden in the past. Light barely keeping you alive, while you revisit the memories of the dead. A feeling stronger than you magnetises you to the reminiscence of their touch and of their voice. I miss them, you tell yourself. But they follow you, like ghosts. In every joke, you hear their laugh. In every silence, you feel their breath. In every sleep, you see their face. The person you love is gone but the memory of them lives on forever. 

Summer playlist 2025

• Salinda, la fille aux yeux de sel - Gabi Hartmann 
• Lungomare - René Aubry 
• El Desierto - Lhasa de Sela 
• Goodnight Buggy - Sulah Jordan
• Como tú - Olivia C. Dacal
• Asturias - Mathias Duplessy 

The tales of a waitress

I often find myself reminiscing about the few months I spent waitressing in a French Brasserie not so far from the Seine in the 5th arrondissement. It was a pleasant experience, seasoned with daunting psychological horror stories. Looking back on those days, I was constantly stressed : What if my tray, loaded with beers and cocktails, fell to the ground and splashed onto customers ? What if I forgot the order of a table of 10 people ? What if I had to wait on a table of 10 people ? 

But there were these few moments where I felt completely at peace. When I would bartend during the day shifts and talk with the regulars. When I would perfect a cappuccino for a customer : three distinct layers of milk / double expresso / foam and a dash of cocoa powder as the cherry on top. When that same customer would compliment my masterpiece. It was those social interactions that kept me working at that place. 

I also enjoyed people watching, it gave me a sense of tranquility observing the lives of others. Seeing a man sipping his green tea while reading a book. Seeing a woman alone at a table, enjoying the warmth of her hot chocolate, awaiting her date, then her date arrives and they embrace. Serving a couple multiple rounds of beers and seeing them laugh and giggle all night long. The comfort of a family sitting around a table sharing a meal. Or a book club getting together writing and discussing all while drinking des cafés crèmes. 

I miss the people. Being a part of their individual personal experiences and trying as best as I can to enhance it without them even noticing. 

Fête de la musique with friends at La Javelle in Paris 

FASHION DESIGNA by the Franco-Congolese hip hop artist THEODORA is by far the best music video I've ever seen in my life. The experimental research on colouring combined with the juxtaposition of video clips gives to the overall result a sense of identity. It pulls you into this deserted utopian universe where space feels blurred and time is none existent. It feels as if I've just awakened from a dream that I desperately searched to recreate. 

FASHION DESIGNA

Poem #2

I can't stop thinking of you 

I think of the deepness of your voice and the way it resonates in my heart when you call my name 

I think of your arms, your hands and the way I melt at the touch of your skin 

I think of the way your eyes fixate on the book you read right before you go to bed 

And of the way when you turn to look at me those same eyes fill with tenderness and care

I think of your lips and of the sweetness I taste when you kiss me 

I think of the mornings we've shared and the scent of our sleep lingering in the air for days

I think of the days after you've gone when I would bury my nose in the pillows you've used, just to feel close to you 

And even though you may be far 

I still feel your warmth 

I remember the evenings I spent wrapped up in your arms

And how it felt like home 

Gymnopédie No.1

Movies & Shows

A curated, chaotic, top tier list of movies & series everyone should watch at least once in their life : 

Frantically entering the 20s : Frances Ha by Noah Baumbach, High Fidelity by Stephen Frears, Apolonia, Apolonia by Lea Glob, Scott Pilgrim vs. the World by Edgar Wright, The Worst Person in the World by Joachim Trier, Girlboss by Kay Cannon

Romantic Comedies (and no it doesn't have to be sappy but it is most of the time) : About Time by Richard Curtis, We Live in Time by John Crowley

Heart warming movies that get you going "Wow I finally have faith in humanity" : Memoir of a Snail and Mary and Max. by Adam Elliot, Perfect Days by Wim Wenders, La venue de l'avenir by Cédric Klapisch

You find yourself lost in Italy, this is your guide : La Chimera by Alice Rohrwacher, Ripley by Steven Zaillian, Call my by your name by Luca Guadgnino, The Talented My Ripley by Anthony Minghella

Now you've gotten lost in France (get it together man !), this is your guide : Ce qui nous lie by Cédric Klapisch, L'Auberge Espagnole by Cédric Klapisch, Yannick by Quentin Dupieux, Le Livre des solutions by Michel Gondry, Les Passagers de la nuit by Mikhaël Hers, Illusions perdues by Xavier Giannoli, Dix pour cent by Dominique Besnehard and Fanny Herrero, Le Fabuleux Destin d'Amélie Poulain by Jean-Pierre Jeunet

Yorgos Lanthimos : The Favourite, Poor Things and The Lobster 

Visually stunning : Anna Karenina by Joe Wright, True by Tom Tykwer, Fantastic Mr. Fox by Wes Anderson, In the Mood for Love by Wong Kar-wai

Tay-ers flowin' pro-few-shlee : The Banshees of Inisherin by Martin McDonagh

Come on now, chin up! Bit of British wit'll sort you right out, eh lad? : Hot Fuzz, Shaun of the Dead and The World's End by Edgar Wright, Monty Python and the Holy Grail by Terry Jones and Terry Gilliam